I fell in love with reality.

Nobody was born great.. everything in life takes practice in order to perfect. But sometimes I wonder why we worship celebrities? they were once in our very same shoes (whether they were bought at Payless or Jimmy Choos). God created us all the same, so what makes us different?

I began thinking while I was working out today.. what about celebrities.. and if I were a celebrity what kind of celebrity would I be? I often wonder about how a movie star really is in life.. like is their whole life one big ass show? do they have some sort of face they must maintain for their "fans" or... do they just not give a damn..?
The other day I was reading a magazine article on Sara Jessica Parker aka Carrie from Sex and The City, and it was an interview posted on the August issue in the Vogue magazine. She relentlessly admits that her life is nothing like the life that our esteemed "Carrie" lived. She isn't this crazy shoe fanatic that is obsessed with fashion. Though she respects fashion; she isn't obsessed per say. Sarah has an up-coming film entitled "I don't know how she does it", this movie is as she says "has the closest relation to my real life". Needless to say, after reading the article I fell in love with the reality of reality... you know? I LOVE LOVE LOVE Carrie from Sex and The City, but for some reason Sarah was really Carrie to me not vice versa. She's human! she has a husband and kids.. its absolutely beautiful... the fact that her life doesn't revolve around shoes and an overwhelmingly obsessive pattern of fashion makes her real life the more intriguing.

Like Sarah Jessica, I like to look at the real lives of people and see them as human, not just a robot on TV with "glory". Not that I don't feel like celebrities aren't great or they don't have talent or anything... I'm just saying, why be a groupie?

I just think, we should live and do what makes us happy... & if you want something bad enough; go get it. (just like celebrities did before fame)*

Thought BIG.

Have you ever lost yourself in your own thoughts?

I swear im on a mental high... I had about 20 million ideas born from a pure moment of insanity... & from insanity a great idea blossomed*

Im the type of person that when I want something... I. Get. It.

and...... I.... want to prosper... SO, I will.

"When it feels like livings harder than dying, for me giving up's way harder than trying." -Kanye

Random-ness....

While everyone would like to think their life is completely perfect; lets not forget that's impossible. I like to think that I can control every thing and every person around me, but who am I to do this? I cant even pass a couple math classes!

Lately I kill myself with how hard I can be on myself but truth is; You are you're own worse critic. I go through mental break-downs just trying to come to the conclusion of what I want to eat... its like: hmm.. I should eat a salad... but i want a cheese burger from McDonalds (but that's fattening) FML. I'm a mess LOL

Anyways.. this (blogging) was a way for me to reach out to the private written book I have living within me and I failed it for a while now... but if you should know.. I have moved out of my house=)
I now live in a three floor town house... I like it, but I miss having just one floor... BUT... my thighs look nicer ;)

I've been neglecting my gym zone as well... so while everyone was getting toned around me, I was getting fat! great '_' But I am definitely correcting that.... Ive been making a daily visit to the gym... I'm proud of the pain I'm experiencing... it makes me feel like I'm accomplishing something! Anyhow, my room is kinna blank... what should I do to it? I'm thinking wall paper... that's "in" now.. ;)

So that's all I have to ramble for now.. maybe tomorrow I'll be a "normal" blogger and pick just ONE topic.

-Becca