Valentines Day

Its been a while since Ive blogged but let me just clarify; I actually have a life (school, work, social life, school, school, boyfriend and more school. Though I have been extra ordinarily busy, I still have so many great blog topics that I would love to get in to. However, this time around I want to talk about "Valentines Day".

Last Sabbath at church, my best friend Alexsis did an ice breaker for youth church that was great... it included love within a bible verse. The bible verse read like this

"Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance." -1 Corinthians 13:4-7

The point of the ice breaker was to have someone out of 4 groups to memorize the bible verse and recite as much as they remember within 5 minutes. Needless to say it was a great idea considering the fact that within the following two days it was Valentines day. =)

My valentines day was full of greatness! My boyfriend went all the way out for my giftS and I was totally grateful (by the way yes, I got him gifts too). Anyways, the day reminded me of every day I spend with my boyfriend... he always manages to show me how much he loves me and it reminded me that the holiday isn't and shouldn't be the only day we ladies or men dress up for each other and buy each other cards of gifts... it should be regularly....

I must admit, I am guilty of using the word 'love' in vain. I never knew the true meaning of love until I met my current boyfriend. He has taught me patience, true happiness, gentleness, guidance and love. I never knew how much a human could actually show love... I didn't know love had the potential to grow.. My boyfriend and I have been through many trials but we've overcome them and I'm so happy now.. because those endeavours have made us stronger. (p.s. I love him... if you haven't already gathered that)

Hopefully your Valentines Day was great and I hope it stood for real Love.
Crushes are cute too hehe =]

Power in decision..

Sometimes, I don't know where to begin in my thought process...
I don't know where to begin, where not to obsess, and when to stop.
I always get to that breaking point... that suggests I stop and when I realize what a race I just put my mind through I begin to pray.
Prayer is so powerful.
Many say "when in doubt, pray." and I believe it.

(a little background info on myself)
I grew up in a Seventh Day Adventist household.... "thou shall keep the Sabbath day Holy" and in my household, we did. I grew up in a state of wonder.. I didn't know what I was in but all I needed to know was "it was right". Often I wondered why I was in this religion considering the fact that I couldn't eat certain foods, I wasn't allowed to go out on Friday nights and early every Saturday morning my family and I would go to church (when I say family I simply meant my house hold because the rest of my family is not 7Th Day Adventists). As I grew up, things got harder.. what seemed to be "right" became annoying and I was no longer a little girl who HAD to do anything.....

and suddenly I'm on my own and I make my own decisions..

A wise man once said something at the dinner table and it hasn't left my mind since then...

he said "You know, sometimes I wish God didn't give me the power of decision."

(by the way that man was my best friends grandfather Grandpa Fletcher.. R.I.P)

Up to this day I refer to that statement as I indulge in thought and I obsess with it because its true... God gave ME the power to choose... to make my very own decisions... That is too much power (think about it). After realizing that I need to be wise enough to make the right decisions that would be beneficial to me... I begin to grow bitter as if I'm setting my youth aside. Surely I want to go out on Friday nights and sure every menu in Miami has shrimp and pork in it.. but if the bible teaches me it isn't right since I was a little girl... what would makes it right now? Ive learned that it isn't always what you want to do... but its what you NEED to do.

I went from having a little girl mentality to making my own decisions. I went from growing up learning a religion and having to choose if this is what my heart pursues at its own knowledge and concluding 'yes'. God is the only one I turn to that has never ever ever let me down... he has been the one to see me through my hardships and pain. So tell me again.. why wouldn't I choose him?

So at times when I race to find a place and I end up at no destination.... I feel lost, lonely, frustrated, unworthy, bitter, anxious; I then unhesitatingly turn to God. I feel for those who don't know God, and who don't turn to him in times of trouble or in times where peace is needed... I wonder where they find their safe place...?

He lives in my mind, soul, and body. Without Him, I would be nobody* I choose God.