One Yearrrr =)) 1-29-11

January 30th was my one year anniversary with my boyfriend Ryan! To say the least... it was amazing! It went something like this...

It was Saturday... and I was getting ready for him to pick me up for church... and right when I finished applying my makeup... he knocked on the door... only to find that he bought me this gorgeous arrangement of flowers!! It was full of exotic flowers =)

As we greeted each other with the whole "HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABYYYY"... we went to my room as he gave me a stack full of cards!! lol... yes, he bought me six cards... and each with a significant number on the top left corner in which I was instructed to open accordingly. As I opened each card I was flabbergasted with love and paragraphs all with a distinct message... as I opened the last card... it went something like... open gift after this card and as i finished reading the card he handed me a pink little bag and inside was two Pandora charms for my Pandora bracelet!!! One read Forever Together (AWWW) and the other one was two red hearts with gold crowns on them.. SO cute =)

I was extremely excited to receive his gift.. and it meant so much to me.

1-30-2011 was a great day because Ryan requested the day off and he cooked for me! PASTA AND CHICKENNN! soo good! we planned a picnic...

We went to South Beach and brought blankets and food with Italian soda and white grape cider. We had such a great time. And of course I brought Tuesdays with Morrie =)) this is what our picnic looked like....

The sunset was gorgeous =) *By the way* these pictures were totally taken with a Blackberry! I left my camera in the car like a smart person "/

We had so many good! After we ate pasta we had desert =)) (my favorite part ALL THE TIME)

There was white grapes, raspberries, strawberries, bananas, whip cream, chocolate dipping sauce anddd Italian soda (Archer Farms) and white grape cider** YES cider! non-alcoholic!

I wanted the best of both worlds on my strawberry and I needed assistance...

*Cheers* to Ryan and I... many years to come =)

"Woman".

Sure models are beautiful but in reality you are your own model.
I am guilty of obsessing over my flaws and not overcoming the inevitable.. but lets face it: we’re never satisfied. My professor for Sociology had us watch a video on Women. The video entailed all kinds of media clippings suggesting that women have become an object. It provided examples from magazine clippings with women exposing their body parts such as thighs, breasts, torsos, butts... pretty much their whole body with bold wording that read “SEX TIPS”, “SEX THAT HE’LL NEVER FORGET”, “BIGGER BUTT EXERCISES”, “FLAT BELLY THIS SUMMER” and etc. Pretty much setting the impression at a level that focused on the exterior of a woman making the exterior inferior with the interior. After deconstructing the advertisements on the magazines, the video touch based with how the parts of a woman were being used as sex symbols. Parts such as lips giving woman the “luscious feeling HE will never forget”. And whoever “HE” is.. “Women” have become HIS sex slave. The media has taken away the beauty of being a woman and replaced it with promiscuity.

Then woman are slowly being brain washed to believe a lie… since their body isn’t as slim or curved like the woman on the magazine is, then a man won’t want her and then she begins to depreciate herself. That’s terrible.

The video also showed how willing woman are becoming to starve and showcase an unrealistic exterior. I must admit that after seeing this video it made me angry because I began to realize that a woman’s worth has become slim to none. It almost seems as though the media sees a woman as a sex toy and the only thing we are good for is sex or being an emblem for sex. Why is that?

Sure, who doesn’t want to look like the model on the front cover of a magazine? But the reality behind that is that those very same models are air brushed and modified repetitively before they can be exposed to the world. Of course the naked eye of a camera lens will not encompass the beauty from within a woman but the content of a magazine can… as well as how the picture is presented. Why is it that sex sells, but appropriateness is teased?

Instead of a woman attempting to achieve a sense of high self esteem, she looks for comfort through a magazine that expresses a bias structure towards what a woman “should look like”. And in that case, I am utterly against it. Even though I am not perfect and I myself have insecurities, the reality of it is, my body will never look like someone else’s body that is voluptuous or curvy. Sure I have other insecurities that have turned me out into feeling this way about myself and this is why I’m tackling it so hard.

My point is, like I said from the beginning “we are our own models”. When you look in the mirror without comparing yourself to anyone; it feels good. Women, you are beautiful inside and out! You don’t need your body to define who you are as a person! And if for any chance you feel bad about how you look; then change it. But don’t let a magazine dictate your self esteem and don’t let magazine articles enhance your need for sexual attention; just be.

Create your own media… =)

Sexuality Vs. Generation

*Disclaimer: I'm a blunt individual, and what I have to say stands for my own clarity. Everything that is written on my blog isn't intended to offend anyone.*



I got to thinking about how lightly sexuality is being taken today. While sitting in my Intro to Diversity class my professor began her lecture with the topic of sexuality and how little by little people are being more insensitive about it.



Most people look up to a higher power when it comes to terms with what makes certain "acts" "okay". Mostly everyone is well aware of the rap artist Dwayne Michael Carter Jr. aka "Weezy". A couple of years ago Wezzy showed affection to another male rap artist (Baby) on TV as he kissed him on the lips on 106 & Park. Why was that okay? Why was it okay for the kiss to be exposed on national television BUT the sight of gay men kissing is abominable? What made that action okay? Why is that we can come to terms with the actions of a famous rap artist and justify him kissing another man, but when a man kissing another man defines who he is - there is always a huge statement made...?

By the way; I'm not gay and I'm not agreeing that being gay is the way to be but I'm just bringing this action out in the open.

I just want to know: what has the industry provided for society to accept as okay? It seems as though if we take a popular rap artist and say he has herpes it will not spoil his reputation for the most part but instead it will minimize the severity of the actual disease. Hence this being an actual problem. In my opinion many people are neglecting the severity of what is wrong... its as if nothing is considered "wrong" now-a-days.... this is slowly becoming problematic.
My children are going to belong to a generation in which none of these things matter by then because will have just become another random act of what "people do"(kissing same sex on the lips) or what "people have" (diagnosed with an STD).

If my generation is preaching that these things are okay or in a sense they are being justified, then OUR future generations will reap what WE have sewn...


ahhh more to come :)

Good gone Bad

I am about to make a bold statement....

The word 'good' has lost its meaning in its entirety.

Have you ever heard the expression "sucka for love"? Well I am what you would call a "sucka for words" and it absolutely undeniably irritates the crap out of me when people use words outside of their context. Not only do I have a love for words but I am fairly into religion.. or even theology... (try and keep up its worth it I promise) The above bold statement was made to make a point and wipe away any sort of justification for our society. So let me just cut to the chase... The last real connection society had to the actual meaning of what is good and what is bad ended with the infamous bar in a rap said by rap artist JayZ in his collaboration with Rihanna when he refer ed to her as "a good girl gone bad". Of course this was said and meant in the actuality of its intended context.. She was a good girl and now she has gone bad.

OKAY PERFECT.. I GET THAT. WHAT IS THERE NOT TO GET?
Today society has such a strong hold on young minds and it is slowly evolving the context of the word GOOD. The rap industry is swapping the meaning of the word good for bad. I find this to be such an issue especially when young minds entertain themselves with solely music and they search for inspiration through the heros' of hip-hop... and because hip hop is such an over populated genre in the music world; our generation is being intoxicated with these lyrics and it is subconsciously changing the way we speak. for instance...

"she BAD" or
"BADDEST chick in the game" or
"the song was sick!" or
"the car is stupid dumb"....

This is my problem... I don't understand why we cant just use the word for what its worth. Why is using an antonym for a word popular right now? Where are we directing our future generation towards? If every little boy growing up now was born to this mentality of referring to a pretty girl as a bad girl, then where does that little boy stand in his very own mind away from music and society? He will stand in a world full of ignorance and in essence he is being taught a dictionary that is completely rewritten by a society that has no direction. As for a young girl growing up in her adolescent years, she will strive to be a 'bad' girl because being 'bad' is the standard for men now-a-days. Its sad....

Its sad when music has such a powerful influence on the way we conduct ourselves subconsciously.. and I'm not saying that I am perfect and what not... because I have used the word 'bad' in its opposite context but when I realized that it is changing the way we think subconsciously I decided to stop using it.

Sadly the real meaning of what the centered text meant was: "she is really beautiful", "the prettiest girl in the industry", "the song was great" and "the car was extremely attractive"...

There are so many other topics I will be touching... stay tuned =)

Fruit and Spice Festival!

Nature expresses humility I'll have you know, and today I was in a world that gratified natures essentials. Today was a day unlike all others; I experienced the Fruit and Spice festival in the Redlands!Of course the Redlands is very far west and its mainly farmlands... well today was a day that it celebrated these flavors and different type of "aiding" if you will.

As I walked through a path that had a blank look with a pale walk-way made up of nothing more than rocks and dirt.. I began to realize I wore the wrong kind of footwear (sandals) Sigh* As i brushed that off.. I lost myself in the calm serenity of what seemed to be a movie as I surrounded myself with different tents that housed distinct elements.

Plants were for sale.. the kind that my abuelita makes tea with... anis, menta, and then of course the exotic plants such as french lavender... it was beautiful.

Then I came across the spices that were for sale, beautiful rich spices.. curry.. even different salts! all specified at the vendors expense of course.. The colors were naturally vibrant and all ignited a beauty all on their own.

As I continued to walk, I came across this one booth that advertised and was sampling different salts for the skin... natural exfoliation basically. I got a one on one demonstration of this one particular scrub.. great experience.. it left my skin sooo soft =) not that they weren't already but... okay what ever, point is... it was great* and JUST IN CASE you didn't know: there is a WORLD full of different wood.
Just when I thought Id seen every instrument ever made.. I was wrong. I hadn't. These gorgeous instruments create such great sounds.. unlike any other sounds I've heard before.. and it looks like some of them might have been made with bamboo.. pretty unique huh?
As if I wasn't already in utopia I had coconut water *yummm* so very refreshing by the way.
Well thats all folks =)

Cold Morning

This morning alike others, I wake up and feel a sort of disconnection with everything... There are days when I feel the need to be closer to God.
I think; maybe if I pray or start a devotional... Or do something nice for someone I'll feel better.
I'm a mess. I think.
I was raised as a Christian yet I sometimes feel I have no faith and I need to change that.
So, this morning I'm waking up to a prayer and some meditation along with a bible verse to carry throughout my day.
I love it; "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." -Heb 11:1

Have a blessed day :) (with faith of course*)

Sometimes Day.

Sometimes I feel like running away to a place that I can't be found yet a place that I know I'm safe..
Life consist of so many spectrums that sometimes its a job to manage all of them at the same time in what may seem like an orderly manner.
Today was a "sometimes" day.
I didn't want to lay down or walk around anywhere..
In actuality my boyfriend is sick and I was taking care of him the whole day which is probably why I didn't want to do anything..
Sometimes I have so much to say that I don't say anything at all...

Today is just a Monday. And I am just a girl laying in bed with so much to say with not enough means to say it.
Plus she(my best friend) says I should blog everyday...

So... Here it is I blog'd :)